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09:49 pm:
You're a roller rink
I'm spinning in circles around you
Like spring night skies that stay blue
This warmth that misses you

01:09 am:
Hi everyone.
Tomorrow my mission is to try my very best not to burn down the kitchen.
Wish me loads of luck.

11:18 pm:
We were walking down the street, holding hands. There's a playground at the end of the block and I run to the swings and climb on, and Henry takes the one next to me, facing the opposite direction, and we swing higher and higher, passing each other, sometimes in synch and sometimes streaming pass each other so fast it seems like we're going to collide, and we laugh, and laugh, and nothing can ever be sad, no one can be lost, or dead, or far away: right now we are here, and nothing can mar our perfection, or steal the joy of this perfect moment.

05:46 pm:
I hope my smile can distract you,
hope my fists can fight for two
So it never has to show,
and you'll never know

I hope my love can blind you,
hope my arms can bind you
So you'll never have to see,
what we've grown to be.

01:31 am:
what a time to fall so miserably ill ):

02:22 am:
this christmas, all i wish for is for all the people in the world who are lonely and who dont have anyone to share this special season with to feel and know that somewhere out there, someone still loves them very much. it could be a stranger or someone that they might have known
but as long as they find it in themselves to remember that no matter what, they are loved and thought of one way or another

dear Jesus, please grant my wish thankyou

06:37 pm:
"Yeah, the "Ice Land" sign is halfway. It's the halfway point."
"Ice Land is - It's kind of like that point in a relationship, you know, where you suddenly realize it's not going to last forever. You know, you can see the end in sight. Tyrone Street."
" Yeah, but we're not even there yet. We're still at the good part. We're not even sick of each other yet."
"I'm not sick of you at all."


I replayed the closing credits over and over because it just felt right, just like how listening to Spiegel Im Spiegel seems perfect when you are walking home on your own, ok I cannot really explain it

02:13 am: another fall from grace

i wake up and the first thing i do is
open my bag of cereal on the floor
and start melting hearts and rainbows and horseshoes
and clovers off my tongue.
i have also lost my voice,
so when i speak, i kind of squeak it's quite funny


hello suffian hakim.

12:08 pm:
"i've been picked on three times today, and all,
because of my trousers"
this is the coolest 12 year old ever and his name is shaun

click

01:00 am:
at the library today i borrowed Irvine Welsh's Omnibus with 3 of his books in one volume,
Trainspotting, The Acid House and Marabou Stork Nightmares. over the next
2 weeks, i will dedicate my time to reading all 920 pages of it.
this is joy

anyway today mom found one of her old photo albums and i managed to see pictures of kongkong the wrestler
looking at him in photos only makes me wish so much more that i had the chance to meet him
i didn't dare say much because i know she misses him alot, but it's really such a waste because i bet he would have made a great grandpa

12:04 pm:
All of our days move so slow since we stopped
and let the world go on without us.

08:35 pm:
i'm sitting down here, having mango cubes that are more like ice cubes to me
i think there is something wrong with the fridge it's freezing things up twice as fast and now my teeth hurt

anyway,
yesterday joan and i hung out and we both realised alot of things about ourselves
at the end of the day, alot of things are up to us to either accept or push away
can we settle for less, or is it just human nature to want more than we get?

07:37 am:


Because you're so good at talking smack, you heart attack
But you're the apple of my eye anyway

04:54 pm:
last night's gig was amazing, and as much as i was struggling to battle with the heat, i thoroughly enjoyed myself. my virgin b-quartet experience left me reeling in shock in a corner as well. where have i been all this while?
anyway after that i had supper with 2 ah-ceks.
who spoke about politics, johhny marr, their take on loyalty and the idea of love.
and all these, in dialect.
this is what being a true blue singaporean is all about

03:20 am:
intent never makes a sound.

05:16 am:
You're so brilliant, grace marked your heart
Don't soon forget, between salvation and love, don't drop your arms
You're so brilliant, I'll guard your heart
With quiet words I'll lead you in and out of the dark


Two more days!

Edit---
The sky is lighting up, timo is making eggs in the kitchen and making so much noise (as if he meant to) and now my mom can't go back to sleep because of that, the smell of eggs (+ my toast with strawberry jam all over the place i am making a mess i am lousy with knifes) and the fact that we have a stupid flu bug going around our house so everyone is sick and coughing and sneezing into the night. I have school in 2 hours so there is no point in trying to do a half an hour nap because half an hour will very most definitely turn into 6 hours or more. Haha oh wait, the bread expired yesterday. Oh well there is no point in being particular now, i am almost three quarters done anyways. Oh i just noticed i like to bite the edges off bread first, or if i am not lazy i like to cut the edges off. I have very weird habits. Ok there are bread crumbs everywhere, i better clean up bye

06:34 am:
so in the end,
what i expected would happen wasn't entirely very far from the truth

i wish i was the one in japan instead,
but nevertheless, i hope my dad is having fun
and i hope he comes back home safe and happy,
with all sorts of good memories to share


anyway,

dear qi an,
thank you for taking the words right out of my mouth, something simple as having to decipher my own jumbled up thoughts and i realised i couldn't even do that properly. i'm sorry i forgot about whisky's name ("wonderboy!") and i'm sorry i belong in a generation far more complicated than yours has even been
thank you for listening and understanding, even though i know throughout our conversation i was going too fast and my words were tripping over each other

09:07 pm:
you know our hearts beat time out very slowly,
you know our hearts beat time.
they’re waiting for something that’ll never arrive


yesterday someone said, without hope what will life be
and i had no answer to that
silence doesn't mean consent but i guess there might be some truth in there after all

06:13 am:



"wo men ke fu kun nan ler.."

11:35 am:

I really have no idea why people clap after hearing a joke. The people in this lecture theatre are all guilty of that.
And last night while I was walking home, I walked past a man who had an eye-patch on. He looked scary cool, and that made me wish I had an eye patch on too.
TVLinks is taking an awfully long time to load,
and this morning i poured too much milk into my cereal and that made the cereal turn soggy faster than usual,

Anyway I need to focus, and be more disciplined.
Have a good day, everybody